I guess that's what you would call it - I don't know. I just can't seem to get anything done. I cleaned my daughter's room for the most part since she won't be home for a while. On a more positive note I bought myself an Aero Pilates Machine. It takes a lot of space and I intend to put it to good use. I have to do this, I can't believe how I have let myself go. I am so sad over what I have done to myself. But spring is a time for new beginnings - just take a look outside. I know it's ok to be a little selfish right now. We have been through so much. Some how it sounds so entitled...
Anyways, we continue to visit on a weekly basis for a couple of hours. I am greatful that we are allowed this time to visit the way we do. I know if this goes another way we will be speaking through a glass partion potentially. Do you realize that? I don't really think so. I hope you are getitng the help you need. I wish you could understand your illness and accept it. I think you are of the mind that your meds will do all the work for you. That isn't and has never been the case.
Spring has sprung and the buds on all the trees are bugling waiting for that right mix of the season to burst into bloom. The lilacs outside the bathrorom window I expect to be so fragrant this year. The tree is it a bush has grown so much! Some of my perennials have come to life in the vegatable bed recently - fresh chives with our potatoes tonight :) There is lots of brush that we need to take care of but again as I started this with - lack of motivation.
You sound so happy today...your friends just left. Funny...two of the girls from a place we would have preferred to forget have become the truest of all your friends. For that I am greatful. Right now I am glad you are away from here without access to your former so called friends. So...where are they now? Not one of your "friends" the good and bad have contacted us to get in touch with you. Then again my heart aches because this must be such a lonely time for you. I hate to say this but you brought this all upon yourself.
I still have my moments of immense anger and sadness but they are moments and not days. They say time heals...this is gonna take a while.
